Blah blah blah..

So........ bad. Cards were bad. But probably becuz I was too loose in the first place.

I need to work on my play a lot. Today I made the biggest lost.

We sometimes have to accept these shit happen as they are part of it..

But it still feels shitty.

Its time to seek the oracle.

SNG: 2nd Place, Upcoming Week

Didn't trade for the past two days. Busy and waking up early due to some event function for my company. Managed to find a little bit of time for a SNG match on stars earlier.

The match started well, people get knocked out quite fast. Until when there were 5 people left the match was quite a drag. I could have knocked out one guy after drawing the nut flush on the river, but I didnt bet his whole stack. I bet two times pot size on river so to leave him 400 chips so that someone else could knock him out for the bounty, stupid.

Until when there were 3 of us left, there was a lady (i'm not sure if its really one but her nick sounded like it) who "kicked me in the nuts". Consecutively two hands went like this against her:

I held JJ.

Raised pre-lop 2 bb.

Flop - 9TJ

I didnt bet a lot becuz it seems dangerous.

Turn - K

I bet one big blind again and she called.

River - 7

She called my two bb bet again.

Naturally, she turned over a QK for a straight, on flop.

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Next hand,

I held TT

I raised another pre-flop with 2 bb (been raising wide range of hands for 2 bb)

Flop - T39

I flopped the nuts again, and bet on it. Two of them called.

Turn - 8

She checked, despite hitting her straight draw, I bet and they called.

River - 6

She bets, we called, and she turn over QJ and groped us by below.

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During heads-up, I think both of us can't wait to tear one another apart after such a draggy session, when three players left (me, the lady and another opponent). The "another opponent" is the one left who heads-up with me. Lost my last pot on 77 vs 99 all-in pre-flop.

And after the session, as always, I find myself running to the toilet. I managed to only knock out one guy for a bounty though.

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School will be resuming next week, my last week end for enjoyment. I am probably putting trading and poker aside even more for this four months ahead to complete my last semester of school smoothly.

I considered leaving my current job so that I can focus on my last semester of school and then have a "trial" of doing trading/poker full-time for the next four months. But how many of us dare to leave a "stable" job so that they can have "unstable" income? Hardly anyone I know does, let alone the fact that I haven't had record of consistent profits in either field.

If I plan to move on from my current workplace, then its time to plan which step to go before landing my foot blindly. Its time to find a field or industry for a career soon. I need to know what I wanttttttttttt........... Passion vs Money?????

Black.

Poker: Weekend Grind

Yesterday I played another Sit & Go [Knockout], and came in fourth. :( that was sad. I played my best but i still think the problem with me is not being aggressive enough.

Later I switch to cash games and met a couple of hands like this:

Post-flop all-in when board: 844

I was holding 88 (the goddamn nuts, less double 4), and opponent was TT.

T came on the river :o

Next hand, opponent shoved all-in pre-flop, I was holding KK. He turned out 88.

The board came 479 T J, giving him a straight. I accepted it, but would have felt better if I lost to triple 8s instead.

Today I juz played cash games. 6-hand 20-50bb $0.10, I usually choose the lowest average pot table, until I am more comfortable enough to move up. Had a nice profit after 200-hands, I am not multi-tabling until I can play my single table with consistent profit. I did played well today I felt, on top of that, I think the table is generally weak and cards were lucky.

A local team pokerstars pro is online right now, Bryan Huang - the only Singaporean in team pokerstars pro. I wonder how is life being a Singaporean team pokerstars pro.

Have been staying at home throughout the weekend, its time to go out and take a break.

See ya!

Black.

Grinded from Grinding

Didnt do very well yesterday. Wanted a short grinded but got grinded instead. When the whole house is tapping for my wireless broadband connection, I got problem with my poker. I often got sit out of the table table due to time out. And thats when I wanted a little faster pace and opened a second table, which was the first mistake made. I cant multi-table yet.

Lost my first buy-in NL Hold'em Cash Games Short-handed 20-50bb, $0.05/$0.10. I grinded back my loss thereafter. But trouble came at the second table. Lost a few critical pots. I felt sucky after all-in preflop my AKs vs QQ. Flop came KT3, turn 7 and river a............... Q!!! Well, 2 outs, but it still happens.

Following, was flopping a mid pair, i was holding K9. Board was A96 T 9. I raised on river obviously. That guy was good. He didnt bet like he had pocket aces on flop and turn at all. WhAm! He takes down the pot again.

Taking a short break tonight to settle some personal stuff. Till then!

Black.